My apologies, its been almost a month since I have posted. And my mom will yell at me if I try to give any excuses ( like I tried to do when I spoke to her on the phone ) So in the past month I havent really weighed myself because I havent really been trying too hard. I havent been watching what I eat and I havent been sticking to my gym goals. The truth hurts... last week I didn't even go once. I'd like to blame it on power and work being exhausting but again, my mom wont let me give excuses....
Today I went dress shopping with all the bridesmaids for my brothers wedding. It wasn't as traumatic as I was expecting, but it wasn't great either. All the other girls are tiny. All of them. The sample dresses they had were size 8s and 10s... not. gonna. happen. My sister is not a big girl and she couldn't even zip the dresses. She could get them on but she couldn't zip them ( I think)... I could barely get them down over my hips. And while I was prepared to not fit into the sample sizes I didn't imagine I wouldn't be able to walk out of the dressing room because I couldn't get the dress far enough over my hips that my hoo-ha wasn't showing. (sorry mom, I used nicer terms when I was on the phone with you) I ended up buying a dress I didnt even put on. I just held it up and imagined what it would look like on. So now I am praying that it looks good.
So then I had to get measured... this was a little overwhelming. I am normally (currently) a size 18 in dresses, 20 on a bad day. I HAD TO ORDER AT SIZE 24!!! they run THAT small. Ugh, whatever, its going to be taken in a ton so the number isn't going to matter anyway. BECAUSE I AM GOING TO REACH MY APRIL GOAL AND I AM GOING TO BE ONE HOT BRIDESMAID.
And THEN I will be one HOT Bride about a year later :)
Going to the gym tomorrow, and every day this week...
First, I want to say that you are beautiful. Second, I want to let you know that I usually wear a size 6, and I had to buy a size 10 bridesmaid dress for Samantha's wedding. Third, I want you to know that I believe in you. You are going to look amazing at both of our weddings, and (more importantly) you'll be ten times healthier. YOU CAN DO THIS!
ReplyDeleteDear Emily,
ReplyDeleteI hope you know that I am only nagging you because I know how hard it is. Truth is, I NEED SOMEONE TO NAG ME right now. You can do it, I can do it too if I can get myself back in the right frame of mind. Let's do it!
Love Mom
Dear Emily,
ReplyDeleteThere is no denying this is hard, real hard. It might be the hardest goal you've worked towards in your life, but it is so so worth it. I know that if you get back on track it won't be long before you feel a big difference, you will lose pounds and gain health, and that is the goal. GAIN HEALTH.
I have an idea for you that might help. Last weekend my friend Cheryl and I cooked together one morning and both ended up with lots of healthy soup to stock our freezer. Find a friend or get your Mom or Alley or someone and decide on a few healthy recipes that freeze well -- cook up a bunch of it together and put it in serving sizes in the freezer. When you come home from work tired you'll already have something good to eat that is just as easy as pizza or wings or whatever. And it's fun!
Also, can you go to the gym in the morning before work? Most times, if I don't do it first thing, it doesn't happen later, either other things keep me busy or I get too lazy or tired and then I feel like a slacker.
Today, be the girl you were too lazy to be yesterday (I just saw this quote on Pintrest).
Close your eyes, picture your future self, hold that image, and make it happen!
I love you.
Aunt Nancy