Monday, November 21, 2011
Thanksgiving is FAST Approaching....
This past week I worked my BUTT off at the gym and eating healthy hoping I would lose a big number. I was shooting for 4 lbs. I knew that was a lot to ask for but I was willing to give it my all. AND I DID! I went to the gym 6 out of 8 days in a row.... I ate SO good. measured just about everything I ate and ate lots of fruits and veggies... how much am I down by the end of the week...ONE DAMN POUND!
I really feel like thats not good enough. Even though I know it happens, some times you just have a bad week even when you work for it, but I really had my hope up. I really wanted to reach that 4 lbs. I would have even been happy with 2... meaning I reached my first TEN lbs!! but nope...
Now I am heading into Thanksgiving at my moms house for 5 days with the whole family... fearing that I am going to gain EVERYTHING back. If that happens I will flip out.
So I have my rules.... that I will follow as best I can.
I dont want to deprive myself of all the goodies because then I will go crazy. So I am just going to make sure I dont go overboard.
So Rule 1 one is no 'grazing' before the feast. I am allowed to have A snack.. I'm just not allowed to "snack"... Noun, not verb... (haha)
Rule 2, limit myself when it comes to leftovers.... one turkey sandwich the day after is okay, and enough.
Rule 3, sorry egg nog, if you make an appearance I will be hiding behind the veggie platter where you can't find me...
Rule 4, MOVE, I dont need to sit on my bum just because all the guys are.. I am going to workout every single morning... AND later in the day if others want to come for a hike, I'll be the first one to put on my sneakers.
Heres to the first Thanksgiving where I dont gain weight, I don't maintain.... I LOSE!
ps: went to the gym tonight and got in a pretty good workout... I'm up to 18 min on the elliptical.
And Alley showed me some cool things to do with the yoga balls and medicine balls. WOO feel the BURN!
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Turkey Burgers and Trainers!
Today I learned that I like turkey burgers!!!
This is huge. I can't believe I waited this long to try them! I think I was associating them with "veggie" burgers so I was too scared to even go there. But since I have been hooked on The Biggest Loser, and thats a staple of their diet, I decided its time to branch out and try it. And boy am I glad I did!! Now Tommy and I just have to find veggies that we enjoy enough to cook so we aren't eating the unhealthy sides anymore. Because right now we still toss a pan of fries in the oven FAR too often.
The other thing I wanted to blog about tonight is how excited I am that tommy is taking the next steps in his own weight loss journey. Yesterday before we went to the gym together he made his weight loss goal spreadsheet like mine. We basically have the same weekly goals which makes our eating habits and workout goals much easier to work with :)
Again, I am hooked on The Biggest Loser and I desperately want a trainer. But obviously I can't afford a trainer so I am stuck motivating myself and trying to figure it out on my own. So one thing we are going to try is training eachother. Once a week we want to go to the gym together, (well, we'll probably always go together) and we are going to train the other person for parts of the workout. So instead of us both on the elliptical, only one of us will be on it while the other keeps us motivated. (and possibly distracted) and then we'll switch. I think it will keep us each motivated (and to be all mushy, it will bring us closer as a couple)
As for my goals, at this point I should be 10 pounds closer to my ultimate goal but I kind of fell off the wagon for a couple weeks. Good news is I DIDN'T GAIN IT ALL BACK! I didn't even stay the same. I LOST ONE POUND! And while thats still not good, its not a gain and I was scared shitless to step on that scale thinking all my hard work was wasted on a couple weeks of bad habits. But it wasn't, Thank God!!
So, I am very excited to head to the gym tomorrow and try out our new plan.
Ready, once again, to get this extra weight off my body.
This is huge. I can't believe I waited this long to try them! I think I was associating them with "veggie" burgers so I was too scared to even go there. But since I have been hooked on The Biggest Loser, and thats a staple of their diet, I decided its time to branch out and try it. And boy am I glad I did!! Now Tommy and I just have to find veggies that we enjoy enough to cook so we aren't eating the unhealthy sides anymore. Because right now we still toss a pan of fries in the oven FAR too often.
The other thing I wanted to blog about tonight is how excited I am that tommy is taking the next steps in his own weight loss journey. Yesterday before we went to the gym together he made his weight loss goal spreadsheet like mine. We basically have the same weekly goals which makes our eating habits and workout goals much easier to work with :)
Again, I am hooked on The Biggest Loser and I desperately want a trainer. But obviously I can't afford a trainer so I am stuck motivating myself and trying to figure it out on my own. So one thing we are going to try is training eachother. Once a week we want to go to the gym together, (well, we'll probably always go together) and we are going to train the other person for parts of the workout. So instead of us both on the elliptical, only one of us will be on it while the other keeps us motivated. (and possibly distracted) and then we'll switch. I think it will keep us each motivated (and to be all mushy, it will bring us closer as a couple)
As for my goals, at this point I should be 10 pounds closer to my ultimate goal but I kind of fell off the wagon for a couple weeks. Good news is I DIDN'T GAIN IT ALL BACK! I didn't even stay the same. I LOST ONE POUND! And while thats still not good, its not a gain and I was scared shitless to step on that scale thinking all my hard work was wasted on a couple weeks of bad habits. But it wasn't, Thank God!!
So, I am very excited to head to the gym tomorrow and try out our new plan.
Ready, once again, to get this extra weight off my body.
Friday, November 11, 2011
The Stairs Are My Enemy
MY LEGS ARE ON FIRE.
last night instead of going to the gym I ran up and down my stairs for 10 minutes. I thought it wouldn't be too bad and I could get in a good cardio workout on a night I really didn't want to go to the gym.
IT WAS TERRIBLE.
BUT AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!
My legs are SO sore. But it was a great workout and I got a great sweat out of it! After that I did 20 pushups (which I haven't done in at least a year) and 30 crunches.
Not too Shabby for a night NOT at the gym. Proud of myself and looking forward to weighing myself tomorrow.
last night instead of going to the gym I ran up and down my stairs for 10 minutes. I thought it wouldn't be too bad and I could get in a good cardio workout on a night I really didn't want to go to the gym.
IT WAS TERRIBLE.
BUT AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!
My legs are SO sore. But it was a great workout and I got a great sweat out of it! After that I did 20 pushups (which I haven't done in at least a year) and 30 crunches.
Not too Shabby for a night NOT at the gym. Proud of myself and looking forward to weighing myself tomorrow.
Monday, November 7, 2011
LOOK! A New Post in 24 Hours!!!
Check it out! I'm writing a new post before an entire month has passed!! Aren't you proud!
So I went to the gym tonight. I did 10 minutes on the elliptical, 2 miles on the bike, 30 painful crunches and some arm machines. Went home needing a shower :)
Was planning on going to the gym tomorrow but I then remembered that I have to work late and wont be home until 9ish, which means no gym because I will have worked a 12 hour day... perhaps I will go for a walk on my lunch break. (probably not) (just being honest)
i wanted to do more on the bike but the elliptical takes a lot out of me. I had worked up to biking 6 and a half miles but even just 10 minutes on the elliptical before jumping on the bike completely exhausted me and I barely made the 2 miles. I wanted to quit before I even made it to one but I sucked it up and finished the 2. Wednesday I will bike the 6 miles FIRST and THEN hop on the elliptical. Maybe it will warm my legs up enough to make the elliptical easier and maybe i can even do 12 or 13 minutes! (woohoo)
On a completely unrelated note, I can't wait to marry the love of my life.
Tommy, I know you probably don't read that as much as others (mom) but I want you to know that I'm not doing this for you, I'm not doing this for me.... I'm doing it for us. Every thing I do, every decision I make, I make with you and us in mind. I love you. Forever. Thank you.
Whoa, that got sappy.
So I went to the gym tonight. I did 10 minutes on the elliptical, 2 miles on the bike, 30 painful crunches and some arm machines. Went home needing a shower :)
Was planning on going to the gym tomorrow but I then remembered that I have to work late and wont be home until 9ish, which means no gym because I will have worked a 12 hour day... perhaps I will go for a walk on my lunch break. (probably not) (just being honest)
i wanted to do more on the bike but the elliptical takes a lot out of me. I had worked up to biking 6 and a half miles but even just 10 minutes on the elliptical before jumping on the bike completely exhausted me and I barely made the 2 miles. I wanted to quit before I even made it to one but I sucked it up and finished the 2. Wednesday I will bike the 6 miles FIRST and THEN hop on the elliptical. Maybe it will warm my legs up enough to make the elliptical easier and maybe i can even do 12 or 13 minutes! (woohoo)
On a completely unrelated note, I can't wait to marry the love of my life.
Tommy, I know you probably don't read that as much as others (mom) but I want you to know that I'm not doing this for you, I'm not doing this for me.... I'm doing it for us. Every thing I do, every decision I make, I make with you and us in mind. I love you. Forever. Thank you.
Whoa, that got sappy.
Sunday, November 6, 2011
It's Been A Month, I Am Sorry.
My apologies, its been almost a month since I have posted. And my mom will yell at me if I try to give any excuses ( like I tried to do when I spoke to her on the phone ) So in the past month I havent really weighed myself because I havent really been trying too hard. I havent been watching what I eat and I havent been sticking to my gym goals. The truth hurts... last week I didn't even go once. I'd like to blame it on power and work being exhausting but again, my mom wont let me give excuses....
Today I went dress shopping with all the bridesmaids for my brothers wedding. It wasn't as traumatic as I was expecting, but it wasn't great either. All the other girls are tiny. All of them. The sample dresses they had were size 8s and 10s... not. gonna. happen. My sister is not a big girl and she couldn't even zip the dresses. She could get them on but she couldn't zip them ( I think)... I could barely get them down over my hips. And while I was prepared to not fit into the sample sizes I didn't imagine I wouldn't be able to walk out of the dressing room because I couldn't get the dress far enough over my hips that my hoo-ha wasn't showing. (sorry mom, I used nicer terms when I was on the phone with you) I ended up buying a dress I didnt even put on. I just held it up and imagined what it would look like on. So now I am praying that it looks good.
So then I had to get measured... this was a little overwhelming. I am normally (currently) a size 18 in dresses, 20 on a bad day. I HAD TO ORDER AT SIZE 24!!! they run THAT small. Ugh, whatever, its going to be taken in a ton so the number isn't going to matter anyway. BECAUSE I AM GOING TO REACH MY APRIL GOAL AND I AM GOING TO BE ONE HOT BRIDESMAID.
And THEN I will be one HOT Bride about a year later :)
Going to the gym tomorrow, and every day this week...
Today I went dress shopping with all the bridesmaids for my brothers wedding. It wasn't as traumatic as I was expecting, but it wasn't great either. All the other girls are tiny. All of them. The sample dresses they had were size 8s and 10s... not. gonna. happen. My sister is not a big girl and she couldn't even zip the dresses. She could get them on but she couldn't zip them ( I think)... I could barely get them down over my hips. And while I was prepared to not fit into the sample sizes I didn't imagine I wouldn't be able to walk out of the dressing room because I couldn't get the dress far enough over my hips that my hoo-ha wasn't showing. (sorry mom, I used nicer terms when I was on the phone with you) I ended up buying a dress I didnt even put on. I just held it up and imagined what it would look like on. So now I am praying that it looks good.
So then I had to get measured... this was a little overwhelming. I am normally (currently) a size 18 in dresses, 20 on a bad day. I HAD TO ORDER AT SIZE 24!!! they run THAT small. Ugh, whatever, its going to be taken in a ton so the number isn't going to matter anyway. BECAUSE I AM GOING TO REACH MY APRIL GOAL AND I AM GOING TO BE ONE HOT BRIDESMAID.
And THEN I will be one HOT Bride about a year later :)
Going to the gym tomorrow, and every day this week...
Saturday, October 8, 2011
Day 31
I have not updated my blog in over 2 weeks. my apologies.
I have been having a hard time getting to the gym lately. However, I am still on track in my weight loss challenge with Nicole :). I believe so far I have lost about 7 lbs. I have another weigh in tomorrow morning. A little nervous because I wasn't able to go to the gym at all this past week and I was sitting on the couch for 3 days with a back injury.
And a bag of cookies from Sonia... thanks sonia :)
But tonight its back to the gym. Tommy and I are going to go back to the gym tonight and I am going to get my butt on the elliptical and just go for it.
I have been watching the biggest loser and it amazes me how some of these people are losing 17 lbs in ONE DAMN WEEK! how on earth? granted some of these men are 300 or 400 lbs but still. They work so hard at the gym and get it done. I can do it too. I can step it up.
My whole plan before was to gradually ease in to longer, stronger work-outs but I want to see what happens when I go to the gym and give it my all.
So here goes.
I'm going to need a serious shower when home because I'll be dripping sweat...
:) go time......
(at the gym)
OKAY! I just got back from the gym. Actually i got back from the gym about a half an hour ago but I took a shower and then checked my facebook but now I'm here!
I kicked so much butt at the gym tonight. I sweat like a mad-woman. (mad woman? i'm not sure what that even means or why i connected a mad-woman with sweating but just roll with it...) I biked 2.5 miles which is laughable to my friends who bike all the time but to me its huge... a while ago I biked a mile with my sister and I felt like I wanted to quit half way through.... but today i completed 2.5 and it felt GREAT! (i also walked/jogged on the treadmill for 15 minutes but thats becoming norm)
Well since I have become such a big fan of The Biggest Loser I saw through the glass doors into another room at our gym (a room I have never been in and thought was like... off limits for some reason... ) that they have those huge rope things. You know the ones that they have to "make waves" with.( I'm having a really hard time explaining this...) Anyways, I ventured into that room today to try out the ropes and I discovered a whole other part of the gym I didn't even know existed. And I finally figured out what the posters all around the gym saying "my yoga class starts at 4:17am" and "my step class starts at 8:43pm" were... Theres a projector and a "red-boxish" kind of thing going on in there. you can choose from 20+/- different classes ...ANY TIME YOU WANT!!!! its magical. I have been wanting to try a step class. I can. I have been wanting to try a dance workout. I can. Tonight, Tommy and I ended our work out with a 20 minute yoga class. (he was better than me so naturally I disliked him for a minute..) Can't wait to go back and try another class.
Back on track, people. Watch out ;)
I have been having a hard time getting to the gym lately. However, I am still on track in my weight loss challenge with Nicole :). I believe so far I have lost about 7 lbs. I have another weigh in tomorrow morning. A little nervous because I wasn't able to go to the gym at all this past week and I was sitting on the couch for 3 days with a back injury.
And a bag of cookies from Sonia... thanks sonia :)
But tonight its back to the gym. Tommy and I are going to go back to the gym tonight and I am going to get my butt on the elliptical and just go for it.
I have been watching the biggest loser and it amazes me how some of these people are losing 17 lbs in ONE DAMN WEEK! how on earth? granted some of these men are 300 or 400 lbs but still. They work so hard at the gym and get it done. I can do it too. I can step it up.
My whole plan before was to gradually ease in to longer, stronger work-outs but I want to see what happens when I go to the gym and give it my all.
So here goes.
I'm going to need a serious shower when home because I'll be dripping sweat...
:) go time......
(at the gym)
OKAY! I just got back from the gym. Actually i got back from the gym about a half an hour ago but I took a shower and then checked my facebook but now I'm here!
I kicked so much butt at the gym tonight. I sweat like a mad-woman. (mad woman? i'm not sure what that even means or why i connected a mad-woman with sweating but just roll with it...) I biked 2.5 miles which is laughable to my friends who bike all the time but to me its huge... a while ago I biked a mile with my sister and I felt like I wanted to quit half way through.... but today i completed 2.5 and it felt GREAT! (i also walked/jogged on the treadmill for 15 minutes but thats becoming norm)
Well since I have become such a big fan of The Biggest Loser I saw through the glass doors into another room at our gym (a room I have never been in and thought was like... off limits for some reason... ) that they have those huge rope things. You know the ones that they have to "make waves" with.( I'm having a really hard time explaining this...) Anyways, I ventured into that room today to try out the ropes and I discovered a whole other part of the gym I didn't even know existed. And I finally figured out what the posters all around the gym saying "my yoga class starts at 4:17am" and "my step class starts at 8:43pm" were... Theres a projector and a "red-boxish" kind of thing going on in there. you can choose from 20+/- different classes ...ANY TIME YOU WANT!!!! its magical. I have been wanting to try a step class. I can. I have been wanting to try a dance workout. I can. Tonight, Tommy and I ended our work out with a 20 minute yoga class. (he was better than me so naturally I disliked him for a minute..) Can't wait to go back and try another class.
Back on track, people. Watch out ;)
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
DAY 13
Sorry I haven't posted in a while. Things have been going well. Most of you know this already but on Sundays weekly weigh-in I was down 3.6 pounds!! ONLY 96.4 TO GO! This week I have been pretty bad about the gym. I haven't gone once but today I went for a walk with my sister and the kids. I'm just having a really hard time getting out of bed in the morning.
I think its because I lost the 3.6.... and I'm all proud of myself so I'm letting myself off easy. But I have to remember that I lost those pounds because I got my butt out of bed, not because I hit snooze 14 times before I flung the covers off and destroyed my warm cocoon. (So painful)
Food wise I have been doing great!! For breakfast I have been having special K (still not measuring out a "serving" but we'll get there....) For lunch I am packing tons of fruits and veggies and a yogurt and a sandwich of some sort. Saturday I went apple picking with Brit and Tommy so I have fresh fruit in the house. I also have oranges, a grapefruit and a banana. I had a pear the other day. I love pears, but it hurts my teeth when I bite into them. I love sugar snap peas so I have those separated out into baggies. Carrots too. I only allow myself to have soda with dinner, otherwise its water or crystal light. However, Tommys birthday was on monday so you better believe there was cake and ice cream and M&Ms in my tummy. I took him to UNOs for his birthday dinner and I got one of the "healthy options". It was a chicken pasta dish with a lemon pesto sauce. I thought I would love it because it included the words "chicken", "pasta", and "pesto" but the "lemon" totally ruined the dish for me. I really didn't like the combination of the flavors. Lemon and pasta dont go together in my opinion.
On to day 14, lets see if I sacrifice an extra hour in my warm cocoon for a good ol' sweaty visit to the gym...
I think its because I lost the 3.6.... and I'm all proud of myself so I'm letting myself off easy. But I have to remember that I lost those pounds because I got my butt out of bed, not because I hit snooze 14 times before I flung the covers off and destroyed my warm cocoon. (So painful)
Food wise I have been doing great!! For breakfast I have been having special K (still not measuring out a "serving" but we'll get there....) For lunch I am packing tons of fruits and veggies and a yogurt and a sandwich of some sort. Saturday I went apple picking with Brit and Tommy so I have fresh fruit in the house. I also have oranges, a grapefruit and a banana. I had a pear the other day. I love pears, but it hurts my teeth when I bite into them. I love sugar snap peas so I have those separated out into baggies. Carrots too. I only allow myself to have soda with dinner, otherwise its water or crystal light. However, Tommys birthday was on monday so you better believe there was cake and ice cream and M&Ms in my tummy. I took him to UNOs for his birthday dinner and I got one of the "healthy options". It was a chicken pasta dish with a lemon pesto sauce. I thought I would love it because it included the words "chicken", "pasta", and "pesto" but the "lemon" totally ruined the dish for me. I really didn't like the combination of the flavors. Lemon and pasta dont go together in my opinion.
On to day 14, lets see if I sacrifice an extra hour in my warm cocoon for a good ol' sweaty visit to the gym...
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
DAY 5
Well, yesterday I woke myself up at quarter of 6 in the morning and dragged my butt to the gym. I actually did it. I said I was going to do it and I did... And it was awesome. I was so proud of myself for doing it that I really felt like I was becoming the person I wanted to be. I had more energy in the afternoon when I usually start getting worn down. I felt wonderful. So I set my alarm again.
Well, when my alarm went off this morning and I hopped out of bed ready to tackle the machines again, I wasn't feeling too great. I decided to not push myself and go back to sleep and that I would go to the gym tomorrow. Which stinks because I really wanted to do 5 consecutive days... but sh*t happens. Tomorrow I'll do better.
Tonight I had dinner with Nicole. We went to the 99 and I ordered the chicken wrap with french fries. Well I am SUPER PROUD to say that I only ate HALF of my wrap and ONLY 6 FRENCH FRIES!!!! HOLY CRAP! I have NEVER left a fri on my plate. EVER. And not only did I NOT eat them, I didn't even take them home for lunch. I took the wrap home but thats different. I proudly left a giant pile of fries on my plate. Go Me. Thats what I call progress.
Well, when my alarm went off this morning and I hopped out of bed ready to tackle the machines again, I wasn't feeling too great. I decided to not push myself and go back to sleep and that I would go to the gym tomorrow. Which stinks because I really wanted to do 5 consecutive days... but sh*t happens. Tomorrow I'll do better.
Tonight I had dinner with Nicole. We went to the 99 and I ordered the chicken wrap with french fries. Well I am SUPER PROUD to say that I only ate HALF of my wrap and ONLY 6 FRENCH FRIES!!!! HOLY CRAP! I have NEVER left a fri on my plate. EVER. And not only did I NOT eat them, I didn't even take them home for lunch. I took the wrap home but thats different. I proudly left a giant pile of fries on my plate. Go Me. Thats what I call progress.
this is what I LEFT on my plate.. :)
So tomorrow is another day. I plan on going to the gym in the morning before work. Will most likely have my left over half of a wrap for lunch with a yogurt and an orange for a snack.
PS: Seeing Nicole tonight was awesome and I love being reminded of what great friends I have and all the support that they give me. Nicole, I love you.
All my other friends and family, I love you too :)
PSS: quite exited to weigh myself on sunday, crossing my fingers for at least a 1.8lb loss.
PSSS: Contemplating going on weight watchers (online) depending on how I do on my own the first month. If I am able to lose what I need to lose and I seem to be on track then I probably wont but if I am having trouble keeping myself on track, I might. Thoughts?
Sunday, September 11, 2011
DAY 3
So last night after I posted my blog entry... I talked to a good friend and we decided to a weight loss competition together. We are going to be doing weekly weigh-ins on sunday mornings and texting each other pictures of the scale for proof. This morning was our first weigh-in so I have posted the picture below. I think I will post them here weekly, too. But I haven't totally decided on that yet. Maybe just once in a while if I have a particularly good week :)
She also discovered a great weight-loss tracker that we will be using to see how we are doing. Here is the link if you want to check it out.
http://www.practicalspreadsheets.com/Weight-Loss-Tracker.html
This morning Tommy and I had eggs and toast again. It was yummy.
That is all for now. Will probably post again tonight because I am sure to think of all kinds of stuff to tell you all about during the day.
She also discovered a great weight-loss tracker that we will be using to see how we are doing. Here is the link if you want to check it out.
http://www.practicalspreadsheets.com/Weight-Loss-Tracker.html
This morning Tommy and I had eggs and toast again. It was yummy.
That is all for now. Will probably post again tonight because I am sure to think of all kinds of stuff to tell you all about during the day.
Notice my beautiful pedicure :)
Saturday, September 10, 2011
DAY 2
So last night when I was lying awake in bed, not able to sleep, I was thinking about my gym dilema. Since I started my new job at the day care I am completely exhausted when I get home and I haven't gone to the gym in 2 weeks. So, I'm going to try doing something that I never in my life imagined ever doing...
I am going to get up at the ass crack of dawn to go to the gym before work...Ugh. What am I thinking!!!
If I have done the math correctly that means I have to get up at before 6am so I can leave my house no later than 6:15am....
I have to be LEAVING the gym no later than 7:45, showered and dressed for work.. So I'm giving myself plenty of time to get to work by 8:15... Its probably going to KILL me the first couple of days but hopefully I'll get used to it.
I have also been reading a lot of motivational book about weight loss. The one I am currently reading is called Such A Pretty Fat by Jen Lancaster. Its flippin' hilarious and EXACTLY what I need. Her book has a lot to do with my I started this blog but it was my Aunts idea in the first place. (Thanks Aunt Nancy <3)
Jen is an absolutely brilliant writer. And I completely relate to her story. I definitely recommend this book.
Before I read this book I read Skinny Bitch. It came highly recommended from a number of people but I have to say that I didn't really like it. At all. It came across a little bitchy... hence, Skinny Bitch... But I kinda thought it wasn't REALLY going to be bitchy...
I'm sorry, I'm having a hard enough time trying to lose weight and figure out how to NOT eat the ice cream that hanging out in my freezer right now. I dont need someone telling me that I will NEVER BE SKINNY IF I DONT STOP EATING ANIMAL PRODUCTS... not going to happen. Sure, I can probably cut down and I probably should, but completely cut it out of my diet? no. never.
It was just too stuffy, not my style.
I did however enjoy Thin Is The New Happy by Valerie Frankel. This one was another memoir that I started reading back in July. I'm not going to get into this one like I did the other books but again, I loved it and I totally recommend it if you need a little inspiration to get to the gym :)
So, about this diet. I have been doing OK with breakfast and lunch lately because I force myself to pack a healthy lunch and then I have to eat it because I'm at work and I cant just find something else in the fridge. Dinners on the other hand are still pretty unhealthy though we are trying to replace some of our unhealthy side dishes with veggies. As of right now, we dont eat any veggies but that will soon change. I didn't do so well today... I had eggs and toast for breakfast which wasn't too bad. But I had BBQ wings for lunch and tommy is currently making burgers on the grill that will be accompanied by a pile of french fries. And I will enjoy every last bite.... oops.
Last but not least, I would like to ask my readers to recommend good workout songs. I need to create a good work out mix that will keep me on the tred-mill for more than 10 minutes.... Usually I watch TV while walking on the tred-mill because the machines at my gym are fancy and have little personal tv screens on each machine... But I have never been to the gym at 6am and I have no idea whats going to be on TV and if I am going to be interested enough to stay on the tred-mill long enough to sweat. SO SEND ME YOUR WORK OUT TUNES!!!
LETS GET HEALTHY. :)
I am going to get up at the ass crack of dawn to go to the gym before work...Ugh. What am I thinking!!!
If I have done the math correctly that means I have to get up at before 6am so I can leave my house no later than 6:15am....
I have to be LEAVING the gym no later than 7:45, showered and dressed for work.. So I'm giving myself plenty of time to get to work by 8:15... Its probably going to KILL me the first couple of days but hopefully I'll get used to it.
I have also been reading a lot of motivational book about weight loss. The one I am currently reading is called Such A Pretty Fat by Jen Lancaster. Its flippin' hilarious and EXACTLY what I need. Her book has a lot to do with my I started this blog but it was my Aunts idea in the first place. (Thanks Aunt Nancy <3)
Jen is an absolutely brilliant writer. And I completely relate to her story. I definitely recommend this book.
Before I read this book I read Skinny Bitch. It came highly recommended from a number of people but I have to say that I didn't really like it. At all. It came across a little bitchy... hence, Skinny Bitch... But I kinda thought it wasn't REALLY going to be bitchy...
I'm sorry, I'm having a hard enough time trying to lose weight and figure out how to NOT eat the ice cream that hanging out in my freezer right now. I dont need someone telling me that I will NEVER BE SKINNY IF I DONT STOP EATING ANIMAL PRODUCTS... not going to happen. Sure, I can probably cut down and I probably should, but completely cut it out of my diet? no. never.
It was just too stuffy, not my style.
I did however enjoy Thin Is The New Happy by Valerie Frankel. This one was another memoir that I started reading back in July. I'm not going to get into this one like I did the other books but again, I loved it and I totally recommend it if you need a little inspiration to get to the gym :)
So, about this diet. I have been doing OK with breakfast and lunch lately because I force myself to pack a healthy lunch and then I have to eat it because I'm at work and I cant just find something else in the fridge. Dinners on the other hand are still pretty unhealthy though we are trying to replace some of our unhealthy side dishes with veggies. As of right now, we dont eat any veggies but that will soon change. I didn't do so well today... I had eggs and toast for breakfast which wasn't too bad. But I had BBQ wings for lunch and tommy is currently making burgers on the grill that will be accompanied by a pile of french fries. And I will enjoy every last bite.... oops.
Last but not least, I would like to ask my readers to recommend good workout songs. I need to create a good work out mix that will keep me on the tred-mill for more than 10 minutes.... Usually I watch TV while walking on the tred-mill because the machines at my gym are fancy and have little personal tv screens on each machine... But I have never been to the gym at 6am and I have no idea whats going to be on TV and if I am going to be interested enough to stay on the tred-mill long enough to sweat. SO SEND ME YOUR WORK OUT TUNES!!!
LETS GET HEALTHY. :)
Friday, September 9, 2011
DAY 1
I am trying yet another way to motivate myself to lose weight, and this time there will be no secrets. I'm just going to put everything out on the table. I am starting this journey at 250 pounds, give or take a few and I am looking to lose 100 pounds in 20 months, totally do-able if I actually get my butt off the couch and my face out of the fridge. It won't be easy, but it will happen. I will NOT be a size 20 bride. I just wont. Here goes.
So I guess I will just start from the beginning. I have been over weight all my life pretty much. Always 'wanting' to lose weight. But now I look back at pictures of myself from high school and I WISH I weighed what I did back then, it certainly would be an easier starting point. I gained a good 50 pounds in college. What did I do to myself. I know exactly what I did. It wasn't that my eating habits changed, I have always been a terribly picky eater. Its that I stopped moving. In high school I was in marching band so I was pretty active. In college the most "exercise" I got was walking the half a block from my dorm to my car and in between school buildings (sad). This is not including the (maybe) 8 times I went to the gym in ALL four years. And yes, that is including the time I went and only used the pool and hot tub. For a month or two I was doing the Bikram thing which was awesome. But too expensive for a college student, and a little too intense for me. Not a huge fan of dripping sweat for an hour and a half... But for the most part, I spent my four years in college sitting on my twin sized bed with a log of cookie dough. (so sad)
Tommy, I am sorry if you take this next part the wrong way, I love you and would not change anything about the time we have spent together. But a huge part of my weight gain was the 'dating scene'. I have never been out to eat so much in my life. And who am I kidding? I can say I'll just order a salad but really I'll order a salad once, be so proud of myself for not ordering chicken fingers, and reward myself with a cheese burger the next 5 times we dine out. Yes, there have been times that TOGETHER we start to make changes and actually see results, but how many times have we fallen back into our old ways (countless times). Remember when we said we'd stop eating fast food and only have it if it were really our only option in certain circumstances, how long did that last? (2 weeks?) If this is going to happen, my life is not the only life thats going to change. Thank you, in advance, for standing by me when I want to quit and remind me why I am doing this in the first place.
So lets talk about this. Why am I doing this in the first place? Well, there are numerous reasons. I dont want to be a fat bride. I'm sorry, I don't. I want to walk down the isle, and I want every single person in the room to gasp at the "new me". I want tears streaming down tommys face when he sees me in my perfect (not size 20) wedding dress. But thats my "shallow" reason. The more important reasons are because I am 22 freaking years old and I have friggin' back pain. It hurts to walk too long. Bending over to clasp my "sexy black heals" is a chore. I have 17 chins. My back fat makes it impossible to look decent in just about anything I wear. I hate shopping for jeans, or anything really. Mirrors catch my eye for the wrong reason (I used to LOVE staring at myself in the mirror. If there was a mirror around, I was stuck in front of it and completely oblivious to whatever was going on around me.) I dont recognize my body anymore. But MOST importantly, I want to be a mother, and I sure as hell want to be around for my kids 5th birthday. I am unhealthy, and at 22, thats not okay.
So now that I have shed so much negative light on myself lets brighten the mood. I know I am a beautiful person and I know that I have talents and potential and that I am 'fine'just the way I am. But I also know that I am strong and I can do this. I WILL do this. I WILL be 100 pounds smaller on my wedding day. Here goes. Day one.
So I guess I will just start from the beginning. I have been over weight all my life pretty much. Always 'wanting' to lose weight. But now I look back at pictures of myself from high school and I WISH I weighed what I did back then, it certainly would be an easier starting point. I gained a good 50 pounds in college. What did I do to myself. I know exactly what I did. It wasn't that my eating habits changed, I have always been a terribly picky eater. Its that I stopped moving. In high school I was in marching band so I was pretty active. In college the most "exercise" I got was walking the half a block from my dorm to my car and in between school buildings (sad). This is not including the (maybe) 8 times I went to the gym in ALL four years. And yes, that is including the time I went and only used the pool and hot tub. For a month or two I was doing the Bikram thing which was awesome. But too expensive for a college student, and a little too intense for me. Not a huge fan of dripping sweat for an hour and a half... But for the most part, I spent my four years in college sitting on my twin sized bed with a log of cookie dough. (so sad)
Tommy, I am sorry if you take this next part the wrong way, I love you and would not change anything about the time we have spent together. But a huge part of my weight gain was the 'dating scene'. I have never been out to eat so much in my life. And who am I kidding? I can say I'll just order a salad but really I'll order a salad once, be so proud of myself for not ordering chicken fingers, and reward myself with a cheese burger the next 5 times we dine out. Yes, there have been times that TOGETHER we start to make changes and actually see results, but how many times have we fallen back into our old ways (countless times). Remember when we said we'd stop eating fast food and only have it if it were really our only option in certain circumstances, how long did that last? (2 weeks?) If this is going to happen, my life is not the only life thats going to change. Thank you, in advance, for standing by me when I want to quit and remind me why I am doing this in the first place.
So lets talk about this. Why am I doing this in the first place? Well, there are numerous reasons. I dont want to be a fat bride. I'm sorry, I don't. I want to walk down the isle, and I want every single person in the room to gasp at the "new me". I want tears streaming down tommys face when he sees me in my perfect (not size 20) wedding dress. But thats my "shallow" reason. The more important reasons are because I am 22 freaking years old and I have friggin' back pain. It hurts to walk too long. Bending over to clasp my "sexy black heals" is a chore. I have 17 chins. My back fat makes it impossible to look decent in just about anything I wear. I hate shopping for jeans, or anything really. Mirrors catch my eye for the wrong reason (I used to LOVE staring at myself in the mirror. If there was a mirror around, I was stuck in front of it and completely oblivious to whatever was going on around me.) I dont recognize my body anymore. But MOST importantly, I want to be a mother, and I sure as hell want to be around for my kids 5th birthday. I am unhealthy, and at 22, thats not okay.
So now that I have shed so much negative light on myself lets brighten the mood. I know I am a beautiful person and I know that I have talents and potential and that I am 'fine'just the way I am. But I also know that I am strong and I can do this. I WILL do this. I WILL be 100 pounds smaller on my wedding day. Here goes. Day one.
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