Sorry I haven't posted in a while. Things have been going well. Most of you know this already but on Sundays weekly weigh-in I was down 3.6 pounds!! ONLY 96.4 TO GO! This week I have been pretty bad about the gym. I haven't gone once but today I went for a walk with my sister and the kids. I'm just having a really hard time getting out of bed in the morning.
I think its because I lost the 3.6.... and I'm all proud of myself so I'm letting myself off easy. But I have to remember that I lost those pounds because I got my butt out of bed, not because I hit snooze 14 times before I flung the covers off and destroyed my warm cocoon. (So painful)
Food wise I have been doing great!! For breakfast I have been having special K (still not measuring out a "serving" but we'll get there....) For lunch I am packing tons of fruits and veggies and a yogurt and a sandwich of some sort. Saturday I went apple picking with Brit and Tommy so I have fresh fruit in the house. I also have oranges, a grapefruit and a banana. I had a pear the other day. I love pears, but it hurts my teeth when I bite into them. I love sugar snap peas so I have those separated out into baggies. Carrots too. I only allow myself to have soda with dinner, otherwise its water or crystal light. However, Tommys birthday was on monday so you better believe there was cake and ice cream and M&Ms in my tummy. I took him to UNOs for his birthday dinner and I got one of the "healthy options". It was a chicken pasta dish with a lemon pesto sauce. I thought I would love it because it included the words "chicken", "pasta", and "pesto" but the "lemon" totally ruined the dish for me. I really didn't like the combination of the flavors. Lemon and pasta dont go together in my opinion.
On to day 14, lets see if I sacrifice an extra hour in my warm cocoon for a good ol' sweaty visit to the gym...
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
DAY 5
Well, yesterday I woke myself up at quarter of 6 in the morning and dragged my butt to the gym. I actually did it. I said I was going to do it and I did... And it was awesome. I was so proud of myself for doing it that I really felt like I was becoming the person I wanted to be. I had more energy in the afternoon when I usually start getting worn down. I felt wonderful. So I set my alarm again.
Well, when my alarm went off this morning and I hopped out of bed ready to tackle the machines again, I wasn't feeling too great. I decided to not push myself and go back to sleep and that I would go to the gym tomorrow. Which stinks because I really wanted to do 5 consecutive days... but sh*t happens. Tomorrow I'll do better.
Tonight I had dinner with Nicole. We went to the 99 and I ordered the chicken wrap with french fries. Well I am SUPER PROUD to say that I only ate HALF of my wrap and ONLY 6 FRENCH FRIES!!!! HOLY CRAP! I have NEVER left a fri on my plate. EVER. And not only did I NOT eat them, I didn't even take them home for lunch. I took the wrap home but thats different. I proudly left a giant pile of fries on my plate. Go Me. Thats what I call progress.
Well, when my alarm went off this morning and I hopped out of bed ready to tackle the machines again, I wasn't feeling too great. I decided to not push myself and go back to sleep and that I would go to the gym tomorrow. Which stinks because I really wanted to do 5 consecutive days... but sh*t happens. Tomorrow I'll do better.
Tonight I had dinner with Nicole. We went to the 99 and I ordered the chicken wrap with french fries. Well I am SUPER PROUD to say that I only ate HALF of my wrap and ONLY 6 FRENCH FRIES!!!! HOLY CRAP! I have NEVER left a fri on my plate. EVER. And not only did I NOT eat them, I didn't even take them home for lunch. I took the wrap home but thats different. I proudly left a giant pile of fries on my plate. Go Me. Thats what I call progress.
this is what I LEFT on my plate.. :)
So tomorrow is another day. I plan on going to the gym in the morning before work. Will most likely have my left over half of a wrap for lunch with a yogurt and an orange for a snack.
PS: Seeing Nicole tonight was awesome and I love being reminded of what great friends I have and all the support that they give me. Nicole, I love you.
All my other friends and family, I love you too :)
PSS: quite exited to weigh myself on sunday, crossing my fingers for at least a 1.8lb loss.
PSSS: Contemplating going on weight watchers (online) depending on how I do on my own the first month. If I am able to lose what I need to lose and I seem to be on track then I probably wont but if I am having trouble keeping myself on track, I might. Thoughts?
Sunday, September 11, 2011
DAY 3
So last night after I posted my blog entry... I talked to a good friend and we decided to a weight loss competition together. We are going to be doing weekly weigh-ins on sunday mornings and texting each other pictures of the scale for proof. This morning was our first weigh-in so I have posted the picture below. I think I will post them here weekly, too. But I haven't totally decided on that yet. Maybe just once in a while if I have a particularly good week :)
She also discovered a great weight-loss tracker that we will be using to see how we are doing. Here is the link if you want to check it out.
http://www.practicalspreadsheets.com/Weight-Loss-Tracker.html
This morning Tommy and I had eggs and toast again. It was yummy.
That is all for now. Will probably post again tonight because I am sure to think of all kinds of stuff to tell you all about during the day.
She also discovered a great weight-loss tracker that we will be using to see how we are doing. Here is the link if you want to check it out.
http://www.practicalspreadsheets.com/Weight-Loss-Tracker.html
This morning Tommy and I had eggs and toast again. It was yummy.
That is all for now. Will probably post again tonight because I am sure to think of all kinds of stuff to tell you all about during the day.
Notice my beautiful pedicure :)
Saturday, September 10, 2011
DAY 2
So last night when I was lying awake in bed, not able to sleep, I was thinking about my gym dilema. Since I started my new job at the day care I am completely exhausted when I get home and I haven't gone to the gym in 2 weeks. So, I'm going to try doing something that I never in my life imagined ever doing...
I am going to get up at the ass crack of dawn to go to the gym before work...Ugh. What am I thinking!!!
If I have done the math correctly that means I have to get up at before 6am so I can leave my house no later than 6:15am....
I have to be LEAVING the gym no later than 7:45, showered and dressed for work.. So I'm giving myself plenty of time to get to work by 8:15... Its probably going to KILL me the first couple of days but hopefully I'll get used to it.
I have also been reading a lot of motivational book about weight loss. The one I am currently reading is called Such A Pretty Fat by Jen Lancaster. Its flippin' hilarious and EXACTLY what I need. Her book has a lot to do with my I started this blog but it was my Aunts idea in the first place. (Thanks Aunt Nancy <3)
Jen is an absolutely brilliant writer. And I completely relate to her story. I definitely recommend this book.
Before I read this book I read Skinny Bitch. It came highly recommended from a number of people but I have to say that I didn't really like it. At all. It came across a little bitchy... hence, Skinny Bitch... But I kinda thought it wasn't REALLY going to be bitchy...
I'm sorry, I'm having a hard enough time trying to lose weight and figure out how to NOT eat the ice cream that hanging out in my freezer right now. I dont need someone telling me that I will NEVER BE SKINNY IF I DONT STOP EATING ANIMAL PRODUCTS... not going to happen. Sure, I can probably cut down and I probably should, but completely cut it out of my diet? no. never.
It was just too stuffy, not my style.
I did however enjoy Thin Is The New Happy by Valerie Frankel. This one was another memoir that I started reading back in July. I'm not going to get into this one like I did the other books but again, I loved it and I totally recommend it if you need a little inspiration to get to the gym :)
So, about this diet. I have been doing OK with breakfast and lunch lately because I force myself to pack a healthy lunch and then I have to eat it because I'm at work and I cant just find something else in the fridge. Dinners on the other hand are still pretty unhealthy though we are trying to replace some of our unhealthy side dishes with veggies. As of right now, we dont eat any veggies but that will soon change. I didn't do so well today... I had eggs and toast for breakfast which wasn't too bad. But I had BBQ wings for lunch and tommy is currently making burgers on the grill that will be accompanied by a pile of french fries. And I will enjoy every last bite.... oops.
Last but not least, I would like to ask my readers to recommend good workout songs. I need to create a good work out mix that will keep me on the tred-mill for more than 10 minutes.... Usually I watch TV while walking on the tred-mill because the machines at my gym are fancy and have little personal tv screens on each machine... But I have never been to the gym at 6am and I have no idea whats going to be on TV and if I am going to be interested enough to stay on the tred-mill long enough to sweat. SO SEND ME YOUR WORK OUT TUNES!!!
LETS GET HEALTHY. :)
I am going to get up at the ass crack of dawn to go to the gym before work...Ugh. What am I thinking!!!
If I have done the math correctly that means I have to get up at before 6am so I can leave my house no later than 6:15am....
I have to be LEAVING the gym no later than 7:45, showered and dressed for work.. So I'm giving myself plenty of time to get to work by 8:15... Its probably going to KILL me the first couple of days but hopefully I'll get used to it.
I have also been reading a lot of motivational book about weight loss. The one I am currently reading is called Such A Pretty Fat by Jen Lancaster. Its flippin' hilarious and EXACTLY what I need. Her book has a lot to do with my I started this blog but it was my Aunts idea in the first place. (Thanks Aunt Nancy <3)
Jen is an absolutely brilliant writer. And I completely relate to her story. I definitely recommend this book.
Before I read this book I read Skinny Bitch. It came highly recommended from a number of people but I have to say that I didn't really like it. At all. It came across a little bitchy... hence, Skinny Bitch... But I kinda thought it wasn't REALLY going to be bitchy...
I'm sorry, I'm having a hard enough time trying to lose weight and figure out how to NOT eat the ice cream that hanging out in my freezer right now. I dont need someone telling me that I will NEVER BE SKINNY IF I DONT STOP EATING ANIMAL PRODUCTS... not going to happen. Sure, I can probably cut down and I probably should, but completely cut it out of my diet? no. never.
It was just too stuffy, not my style.
I did however enjoy Thin Is The New Happy by Valerie Frankel. This one was another memoir that I started reading back in July. I'm not going to get into this one like I did the other books but again, I loved it and I totally recommend it if you need a little inspiration to get to the gym :)
So, about this diet. I have been doing OK with breakfast and lunch lately because I force myself to pack a healthy lunch and then I have to eat it because I'm at work and I cant just find something else in the fridge. Dinners on the other hand are still pretty unhealthy though we are trying to replace some of our unhealthy side dishes with veggies. As of right now, we dont eat any veggies but that will soon change. I didn't do so well today... I had eggs and toast for breakfast which wasn't too bad. But I had BBQ wings for lunch and tommy is currently making burgers on the grill that will be accompanied by a pile of french fries. And I will enjoy every last bite.... oops.
Last but not least, I would like to ask my readers to recommend good workout songs. I need to create a good work out mix that will keep me on the tred-mill for more than 10 minutes.... Usually I watch TV while walking on the tred-mill because the machines at my gym are fancy and have little personal tv screens on each machine... But I have never been to the gym at 6am and I have no idea whats going to be on TV and if I am going to be interested enough to stay on the tred-mill long enough to sweat. SO SEND ME YOUR WORK OUT TUNES!!!
LETS GET HEALTHY. :)
Friday, September 9, 2011
DAY 1
I am trying yet another way to motivate myself to lose weight, and this time there will be no secrets. I'm just going to put everything out on the table. I am starting this journey at 250 pounds, give or take a few and I am looking to lose 100 pounds in 20 months, totally do-able if I actually get my butt off the couch and my face out of the fridge. It won't be easy, but it will happen. I will NOT be a size 20 bride. I just wont. Here goes.
So I guess I will just start from the beginning. I have been over weight all my life pretty much. Always 'wanting' to lose weight. But now I look back at pictures of myself from high school and I WISH I weighed what I did back then, it certainly would be an easier starting point. I gained a good 50 pounds in college. What did I do to myself. I know exactly what I did. It wasn't that my eating habits changed, I have always been a terribly picky eater. Its that I stopped moving. In high school I was in marching band so I was pretty active. In college the most "exercise" I got was walking the half a block from my dorm to my car and in between school buildings (sad). This is not including the (maybe) 8 times I went to the gym in ALL four years. And yes, that is including the time I went and only used the pool and hot tub. For a month or two I was doing the Bikram thing which was awesome. But too expensive for a college student, and a little too intense for me. Not a huge fan of dripping sweat for an hour and a half... But for the most part, I spent my four years in college sitting on my twin sized bed with a log of cookie dough. (so sad)
Tommy, I am sorry if you take this next part the wrong way, I love you and would not change anything about the time we have spent together. But a huge part of my weight gain was the 'dating scene'. I have never been out to eat so much in my life. And who am I kidding? I can say I'll just order a salad but really I'll order a salad once, be so proud of myself for not ordering chicken fingers, and reward myself with a cheese burger the next 5 times we dine out. Yes, there have been times that TOGETHER we start to make changes and actually see results, but how many times have we fallen back into our old ways (countless times). Remember when we said we'd stop eating fast food and only have it if it were really our only option in certain circumstances, how long did that last? (2 weeks?) If this is going to happen, my life is not the only life thats going to change. Thank you, in advance, for standing by me when I want to quit and remind me why I am doing this in the first place.
So lets talk about this. Why am I doing this in the first place? Well, there are numerous reasons. I dont want to be a fat bride. I'm sorry, I don't. I want to walk down the isle, and I want every single person in the room to gasp at the "new me". I want tears streaming down tommys face when he sees me in my perfect (not size 20) wedding dress. But thats my "shallow" reason. The more important reasons are because I am 22 freaking years old and I have friggin' back pain. It hurts to walk too long. Bending over to clasp my "sexy black heals" is a chore. I have 17 chins. My back fat makes it impossible to look decent in just about anything I wear. I hate shopping for jeans, or anything really. Mirrors catch my eye for the wrong reason (I used to LOVE staring at myself in the mirror. If there was a mirror around, I was stuck in front of it and completely oblivious to whatever was going on around me.) I dont recognize my body anymore. But MOST importantly, I want to be a mother, and I sure as hell want to be around for my kids 5th birthday. I am unhealthy, and at 22, thats not okay.
So now that I have shed so much negative light on myself lets brighten the mood. I know I am a beautiful person and I know that I have talents and potential and that I am 'fine'just the way I am. But I also know that I am strong and I can do this. I WILL do this. I WILL be 100 pounds smaller on my wedding day. Here goes. Day one.
So I guess I will just start from the beginning. I have been over weight all my life pretty much. Always 'wanting' to lose weight. But now I look back at pictures of myself from high school and I WISH I weighed what I did back then, it certainly would be an easier starting point. I gained a good 50 pounds in college. What did I do to myself. I know exactly what I did. It wasn't that my eating habits changed, I have always been a terribly picky eater. Its that I stopped moving. In high school I was in marching band so I was pretty active. In college the most "exercise" I got was walking the half a block from my dorm to my car and in between school buildings (sad). This is not including the (maybe) 8 times I went to the gym in ALL four years. And yes, that is including the time I went and only used the pool and hot tub. For a month or two I was doing the Bikram thing which was awesome. But too expensive for a college student, and a little too intense for me. Not a huge fan of dripping sweat for an hour and a half... But for the most part, I spent my four years in college sitting on my twin sized bed with a log of cookie dough. (so sad)
Tommy, I am sorry if you take this next part the wrong way, I love you and would not change anything about the time we have spent together. But a huge part of my weight gain was the 'dating scene'. I have never been out to eat so much in my life. And who am I kidding? I can say I'll just order a salad but really I'll order a salad once, be so proud of myself for not ordering chicken fingers, and reward myself with a cheese burger the next 5 times we dine out. Yes, there have been times that TOGETHER we start to make changes and actually see results, but how many times have we fallen back into our old ways (countless times). Remember when we said we'd stop eating fast food and only have it if it were really our only option in certain circumstances, how long did that last? (2 weeks?) If this is going to happen, my life is not the only life thats going to change. Thank you, in advance, for standing by me when I want to quit and remind me why I am doing this in the first place.
So lets talk about this. Why am I doing this in the first place? Well, there are numerous reasons. I dont want to be a fat bride. I'm sorry, I don't. I want to walk down the isle, and I want every single person in the room to gasp at the "new me". I want tears streaming down tommys face when he sees me in my perfect (not size 20) wedding dress. But thats my "shallow" reason. The more important reasons are because I am 22 freaking years old and I have friggin' back pain. It hurts to walk too long. Bending over to clasp my "sexy black heals" is a chore. I have 17 chins. My back fat makes it impossible to look decent in just about anything I wear. I hate shopping for jeans, or anything really. Mirrors catch my eye for the wrong reason (I used to LOVE staring at myself in the mirror. If there was a mirror around, I was stuck in front of it and completely oblivious to whatever was going on around me.) I dont recognize my body anymore. But MOST importantly, I want to be a mother, and I sure as hell want to be around for my kids 5th birthday. I am unhealthy, and at 22, thats not okay.
So now that I have shed so much negative light on myself lets brighten the mood. I know I am a beautiful person and I know that I have talents and potential and that I am 'fine'just the way I am. But I also know that I am strong and I can do this. I WILL do this. I WILL be 100 pounds smaller on my wedding day. Here goes. Day one.
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